I'm back in WA for a few weeks. Bobby and the ship are HOME, even if it is just for a relatively short period of time.
It's cold here but other than that, I'm mostly glad to be here.
Punk has his four month well baby tomorrow, crazy, I can't believe it's been almost four months since he was born, I feel like he's been mine forever. Punk has changed my life drastically, however, it's almost impossible for me to really remember my life before motherhood.
I feel bad, I'm one of those people I never really wanted to be, I have a dog, I loved the dog like a child...until I had a child, now the dog hair in my house is killing me and I am doing enough traveling in the next year that the dog is becoming a huge issue. Bobby loves the dog (I do too, but I'm more realistic than he is I when it comes to him I think) and all I can think about is finding him a new home so I don't have to worry about him and I don't have to clean up after him...never thought I would not want the dog, but I don't want the dog...
I have been trying to clean up a lot of junk in my life since Punk came. It's funny, other things in my life that seemed important before, now, really seem like they might be more stress and trouble than they are worth. Honestly, I feel a real draw towards focusing on being a better wife and a good mother and doing everything in my power to be a better person to be better at both. Things that were important previously that don't help me be a better wife/mother just seem like they need to go in order for me to focus that energy on being the best me for myself and, more importantly, for my family. I never imagined that being a mother would prove to be such a real change in the focus of my everyday life...I couldn't be more happy about the changes that I have made or the changes that are to come.